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I was going to agonize in this post about my need for you to show you are alive ( and not just when I see you on the forum, which triggers me big time and makes me super super sad ).
I was also going to ask you to please be sweet.
However I am rather asking me to be sweet.
I am exhausted, I left you and regretted it nearly immediately, I left my best friend because of safety questions and issues and now, eventually reaching the end of 3 exhausting weeks of work and maybe seeing the end of financial mayhem I am facing yet another deadline and an inspection and it sucks. It just sucks.
On the way back from school I was thinking that my little squares were starting to pile up on the unhappy side and it sucked.
So the romantic love square is off. The friendship square is partly off. I don’t have any close friend I can confide in anymore and I would definitely need the support right now. The family square is so-so. The financial square is still in recovery. The workout square is off for one more week as my back is still healing from the surgery. My self esteem square is totally off. My meditation square is off as well. In the end…
I wanted to fast but this is off too with the amount of work I am going to have to go through before next week.
My fasting square and bettering my health and losing body fat is off as well.
How many are left that are ok ?
My client/ lightwork square is on.
My gratefulness is on.
I am tired/exhausted but still on my 2 feet and I have my voice and despite being sick or having surgery my family members are alive. My dog is ok. Yeah ! That is 4.
But honestly the rest sucks and this is not a good time for me.
I had a coworker taking the piss out of me today. Ok. I will take notice of that next time we talk and be sure to a just my attitude. You fouled me once, not twice.
I also decided I would not stress too much over it. Ok. This too I will stick to it as much as I can. I have a big week of work, plus a long meeting on Thursday. I will delay everything else. I am so tired, so tired and so down tonight.
So instead of asking you to be sweet ( but oh my goodness, how much I want you to say hi, there is no words to describe how much I crave and ask for this ), I am asking myself to be sweet. I think I am going to hit the bed after finishing my camomille and try to wake up early tomorrow. Tomorrow will be another day and hopefully I will feel more energized and capable of tackling yet another challenge like this one before crumbling and sleeping 48 hours.
I just hate my job right now. I hate that side of it. Jeez. This is another sign that I really need to change career and study to get a new life. Quick.
Help Universe, please Help !
Help me be empowered by the challenge and tackle this opportunity like a Champion, let me be a Champion and have an awesome time next Wednesday and move on beautifully with lots of fun and love.
Let me receive good happy loving news from Utz, please, Universe !!!